Just a Friend

baby cuz we glow.. we walk around the city niggas actin like they kno .. aint nothin to us shawty cuz platonic is our flow... i tell 'em to mind it but like the paparazzi .. they think they right on it .. but yea they dont know shit

So u got To have FRiEndS

Ppl forget that a friendship.. Is a relationship.. U got to build it and help it grow.. With trust .. Honesty.. And a open heart.. So u can be in a friendship with the opposite sex.. And be in a relationship that doesn't require titles as a BF or GF.. Have the mindset that .. your just my friend... And I love you .. I care for u as if u are the one I am bonded to .. But u are JUST my friend.. It's that simple.. Not a friend with benefits .. Not a side or a main jont.. If it comes to a title then so be it.. "Just chill and settle down".. It will happen with the right person at the right time.. In the mean time.. Have friends .. build relationships.. And just live

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God has the Ball .... he shoots .... he...____

Sometimes it seems like things won't change. I get put in the same
situation time and time again. Falling for somebody that could live
without me being on their agenda. I kno u have to be patient.. I'm
just really wanting things to go my way sometimes.. Lord i don't ask
for anything immoral.. I just ask for just for a friendship to grow to
something more.. But I guess the only thing I can do is leave it in
your hands.. So I made the first play.. Lord now I'm giving you the
ball.. I don't even know what to expect anymore.. All I can do is
leave it be..

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Full CiRcle

And it happens.. Karma... Wow didnt know how long it was gonna take to actually see it take place... i mean i really dont want someone to be hurt like i was.... but hey you cant stop it when it happens... it comes faster than the midnight train to Georgia... People always try to make karma come with there own hands... NOPE not gonna happen... Stop trying to go out here ladies and finding a man just to make ur old jont jealous ... it works for a second .. but not the outcome you what you want it to be... trust me i kno... But that was just an example of how you know that karma isnt created by man... God has more than enough to do with that.. yes someone hurt you or did u wrong... but just know that one day .. we never know when .. but they will endure the same hurt and pain as you... As many times that i have been hurt by family, so called friends, and men/boys/dudes.. i have hoped and prayed that they will feel the same way as i did... but how does that sound .. terrible, right?? ... Right.. so dont worry how that person will "feel your pain".. because you know what .. YOU'LL NEVER SEE IT! .... you'll know when they are finished going through though.. well atleast i do...

so i didnt do it..yea yea.. give me a break

So last time was was supposed to do this life changing thing such as, stop messing with dude with the "situations"( that sounds bad). But i didn't. that same day ii saw him and like always forgot everything that needed to be said and done.

but like everyday at work ready my email and my horoscope is the first thing i read. and today reads:

"Dear Jazmine,Here is your single's love horoscope for Thursday, July 2:

If you're on the fence about a certain someone or situation, the stars suggest you stay up there a bit longer and suss out both sides a bit more. Give it a little time and you'll know which side to come down on."

so there must have been a reason why i couldn't say anything, other than the fact that we were around his friends and all that crap. i mean i don't really believe in the whole astrology thing but i do take it in to consideration. its just interesting sometimes. but this time I'm gonna mind this one

even though it my be a lost cause. I'm just gonna have to pray on it. We will see!

Can I really do it?

Ok so this is a challenge to my self and to others. I feel like we as women are the most loving and compassionate people on earth and we can find the good in any ... and I mean ANY situation. Especially if its against our morals and ethics. We will do anything to stay in love or to have love. Be it mother, daughter, sister, friend, grandmother, lover, and even enemy. Yes even enemies and evil doer's are lovers too. I as women we love to love and to be loved. we all do it in different ways. Some ways are unconventional, others are old school. But bottom line we need to have that feeling or we are just incomplete.

Now I can admit, out of all my friends i am the the one who is in love with love. I have gone out of my way to get it, keep it, have it, and need it... I NEED LOVE!.. Where is LL CoolJ when you need him. But i digress. I have taken a love affair to far for to long... yes an AFFAIR. Ok yes, i know its wrong, but it felt so right. Especially when you think it was going some where. Now the first thing you would think, well i wouldn't do that, because i wouldn't want it happening to me. But at the same time how would you know that you are in one. That's what happened. I didn't know I was in one. I thought things were slowly breaking away from the other "situation" that slim was in but little did I know. It was kinda not.

See I loved this guys sooooo much that i didn't care what his "situation" was, so I kept on. I know that's wrong but its where i wanted to be .. i wasn't gonna mess that up. Even if i was playing number 2, even though I at one point was running the number one spot. But back to what i was saying about us women, we find all the good in the most dumb, bad, and unethical situations.

Now! I have come the realization that only I can change this situation. I know its not right. So now i have to make it right with for my self. I cant deal with this anymore, even though i still love him like I do. As much as I do! there has got to be a way to make this work for me.

So my challenge to you and my self is to make it work for you. I'm going to have to end it. ( Just typing that made my heart drop)

Really I'm not getting anything from it. maybe a couple of Phone calls. But that's it. I think of it as he has to to choose. Even though I have already chosen in my heart what I want. O well we will see what happens.

Omg.

Omg.
Are the first to letters that come to my mind when I hear your name.
The thought of you just wrecks my brain.
Omg.
Oh how things used to be.
So happy and carefree.
Some place that I wish I could be
OMG
sheeeesh man what do u do to me
The words you make me scream
Now when I'm around you I got to be mean
So I can make you flee the scene
That allows me to be alone just to say
OMG
Never have I felt this way
I wonder if this feeling is left to stay
Maybe it's the only way
Naw man noway
With that thought it causes me to say OMG

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They call me betty crocker. Cuz I cooks em real good.

They call me betty crocker. Cuz I cooks em real good.
Stir em up, cook em up, and decorate em too
But you kno what they never come back to say thank you for making me the cake I am today
Cuz some fool got in their mix tellin them how good they are
How much they fiend for them.
How good they make them feel.
And the next thing you kno they're torn down
Left in pecies, scraps no more left
Just cuz some one got into their mix.
It's a damn shame.
The person that builds u up. Is never goin to be the one to tear u down.

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Can't Hold a Heart

Can't Hold a Heart
Some people should never be able to "have your heart"
They never know what to do with it from the start
Seems like when you hold my heart you dont know what to do with it
You juggle it intil your through with it
From the beginning you held it and eventually let it slip
Maybe its in your nature
Maybe your heart isnt hip
To the way things are supposed to be
Its been broken and mended, broken and mended
But this time im just gonna have to end it
Because every other time im the one who has to mend it
But i can understand thats just how you are
Thats why i guess we are apart
Cuz i can see that you cant hold a heart

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I got this text message today and it almost made me cry. It had this beautiful picture with it to. The text reads

I got this text message today and it almost made me cry. It had this beautiful picture with it to. The text reads
"the worst thing is holding on to someone who doesnt want to be held on to. Dont fall for someone unless they are willing to catch you. The thing about falling in love is that if you do it right, you'll never hit the ground. Life is to short to be anything but happy. So kiss slowly. Love deeply. Forgive quickly. Take chances & never have regrets. Forget the past but remember what it taught you. Sometimes you have to just to smile, pretend everything is ok, hold the tears back and walk away. If you wany to see your rainbow you must go through the rain. If you want true love you must go through pain. Women were made from a man's rib, not from his head to be superior, not from his feet to be walked on, but from his side to be equal, from under the arm to be protected, and from next to the heart to be loved."

All u could say is "dag"
Its so tru
My life
What should i do

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Settling for less

Settling for less

Man what a topic.
Most of everybodies life deals with the situation of " am i setteling?". They tell you to never settle, cuz there is always something more or better out there. But what if what is right here, is exactly what you want. So you wouldnt be settle'n it would be what you want. But what if that person isnt who God wants for you?! I mean maybe that is tbe person that he has for you but God hasnt got them ready for you just yet. You never know.

Settling for less isnt only in relationships, its other parts of daily life.
Such as your living situation or your position at work. You are able to have any thing you want. With God your not limited to only you give your self. But you have to see that you are worth more.

I mean im preaching to myself. I see that im worth more but im still stuck in the same place. Im trying to get my self to see that im really worth more than i really think i am.

When it comes to relationships i see myself struggling to prove that i am the best woman out here, im the best choice to make. I tell em you better get me now, "put a ring on it", before its to late. But i shouldnt have to prompt someone to understand that, cuz i and everybody else sees that im a damn good woman and i should have first priority in your life. BUT i see my self just sittin and waitin for ppl to see that. And yea i know, thats settle'n. When there are plenty of men that would break their back for me and want to be the love of my life. Uuugh!

Change is gonna come!

Settling in your daily life is another set back to your own dreams. You know that you want to succeed but your lazy. IM LAZY! And i know it. But there has got to be an attitude change where you dont want to be in this place that you are used to. I know im really talkin to my self, but there is sooooooo much more things in your reach, you just got to reach for it.

Start reaching!

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dag

dag
My life
My life
My life
So i was sleep one nite, well maybe trying to fall asleep when all of assuden something came to me. I believe it was God telling me that something great was going to happen in my life something BIG!
Im still not sure what it is or when its gonna be. But im sure its gonna happen. No im positive that its gonna happen. Its crazy though to speak something into your life. The hardest thing is to believe that its coming. No really the hardest thing is moving the things out of your life thats preventing your change. "Your change is gonna come". That song stuck with me all day. It brought me peice through the day. Cuz the things that where going through my mind today was messing me up.

Man my life, im just wondering what path its gonna take. Im scared but excited at the same time.

My life my life

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shawty is a vixen

Yes shawty is a vixen
He knows just what he's missing
And thats fine cause soon this ass he will be kissing
Just dipping and dabble'n in my love
Trying to get back on that level when he was above the rest
Cuz now comes the test where you'll have to prove yourself
Cuz what i was doing before was messing with my health
So im putting me on top of the shelf
Where im higher than everyone else
And where i can see
What you can try to do to me before you think about hurting me

just observing

You know as i sit back and read these status and profiles i never really umderstand how ppl can be so prest over ppl they barely knw. Or ppl that they dont kno at all. Ppl feel like they have ties to these ppl but in reality they just meet in the club an went home and got on FB and added them. And automatically think they are that cool with them to ask them for favors. Its just funny. Like one guy i know he has everything going for him. Has his own company, helps you plan your weekends, and who's salary speaks for its self. I personally look up to him, for his business ethic. But others look up to him as a gateway. "oh gurl you know ***** o he be running stuff up at the club gurl, imma see if he can get me cool wit such in such". Or "ay dawg i went to high school wit that nigga man we go back imma ask him if he can hook me up wit promotin', cuz he be gettin the bait".
Yea its funny but its true. Everybody os trying to get ahead but you cant be using people. Ive noticed that people that are on top of their stuff dont really want to lend that helping hand either. And most of the time they are not. Thats why you have to be the one to push your self. And push your brand. Yea sure you can be an OA promoter (just an example, cuz i support yall all the way) but maybe you can be an owner of something. But they say u got to start from the bottom and work your way to the top. But id rather start from the top and stay there.